Errrmmm...
What did I say about posting here more often? *cough* Ah, whatever.
I just discovered a nice free webhost where you get 100 MB space and unlimited bandwidth... but the file uploading is different and a little complicated. So I don't know yet if I'm really gonna use it.

A thought.
Sorry, once again. I just noticed that no one knows about this blog. I could use it for my secret bitching about people. Yeah.
Daja doesn't know about it. I saw that I created it after she had gone away from the internet and why should I have told her afterwards? She isn't interested in blogs anyway.
My classmates have no clue about nothing, the old ones have forgotten about me already, the new ones don't have a clue about my online work yet. And I'm never gonna tell them the addy of my site - for sure.
I think I'm gonna be here more often.

Time zones, you know?
My life's only made of good days lately. Thanks to the bunch of people being dropped into my life a few weeks ago... =D =D
This was the weirdest night of my life. I stayed up until 0.30 this morning because of the VMAs - time zones, you know? Then I got up again at 2.30 am to sign up for a terrific webhost in Alaska. You can only sign up at specific times, so I had to get up in the middle of the night - time zones, you know?
Then - SURPRISE! - I woke up before I actually had to and was completely awake. And it was early, it was 5.45 am or something like that. But now I'm really tired. *yawn*
I haven't blogged here for ages. Hm. I'm hoping to get my LJ code soon. The song that was just on the radio made me want to write a story. I haven't written stories for ages.
Die, virus mails, die!! I already got about 90 earlier today and now AGAIN. *delete*

Everything...
...is soooooo weird today. And I mean everything. Everything is happening today of all days and I wonder why. Now I'm finally hanging my two posters on my walls and... look at them for the rest of the day *lol*...... And I still have no clue how to make this a community blog. And I still have no clue how the next layout will look like. But for the last thing I have time until October. So the new design's gonna be a little birthday present to myself. Hmm. I shouldn't be surfing so much.

Back!
I'm back from holidays and I finally have my room, my guitar, my computer, my bed (YAY!), my music and my Daja (IMPORTANT!) back. I'm so glad, although I'll miss the house in front of my window. It's the most beautiful house in the world. =( More within the next few days.

Gone gone gone.
Daja is going to hospital tomorrow. I'm sad. I'll miss her like hell. =( =( =(

Oh, leave me alone.
I'm trying to install Greymatter for hour now. I wanted to test FTP and downloaded BestFTP Explorer, because there's an excellent tutorial for it. Then I wanted to try it with Tripod because I have an FTP account there. Wonder why. Anyway, I suddenly found out that CGI is enabled, too. And because on that site is also a great Greymatter tutorial, I decided to try that, too.
Hell. The damn thing refuses to find the gm.cgi file. I know the location and all that stuff... it just doesn't find it.
And if that wouldn't be enough - JoviTalk doesn't work. I just can't show up the site. DC works fine, everything else works fine (except gm.cgi), it's just JoviTalk. Maybe because the whole world wants to review London yesterday. Yay. *sigh*

The Wishlist
I wish I had someone.
Someone by my side, through good and bad, as kitschy as it might sound.
Someone I can call in the middle of the night when something's on my mind.
Someone who's crazy enough to understand me in all of my moods but sensible enough to get me down to earth again when I'm once more freaking out.
Someone who makes me feel gorgeous on days I just wanna smash the mirror.
Someone who tells me it's alright when my world is falling to pieces.
Someone I'm not afraid to be touched by. I'm often afraid to be touched by people.
Someone who lies at the beach in the middle of the night and looks at the stars with me.
Someone whom I can sit next to for hours without saying a word and yet he knows what's on my mind.
Someone who writes me a song.
Someone who can make me close my eyes and let myself surrender.
Someone who makes me laugh when I desperately need it.
Someone who doesn't mind me singing twenty-four hours a day in every thinkable situation.
Someone who holds my hand through my nightmares.
Someone who's with me when I suddenly feel the urge to go out dancing in the pouring rain.
Someone who knows that my clock is always three minutes behind.
Someone who comes with me when I wanna ride a ferris wheel, although it's something kids do.

I wanna be loved.
I wanna be adored.
I wanna be painted with watercolours all over.
I wanna have strawberry ice-cream eaten off my body.
I wanna go out in high heels and an expensive dress and feel everyone's eyes on me.
I wanna sit at a campfire with that particular person and go skinny-dipping under the full moon.
I wanna be inspired and fulfilled and overwhelmed.

In the mood
I'm in the mood to blog here again. I still can't figure out how to make the thing a group blog, but I guess it can wait. I also added the links to the sites I visit daily.
Only two days until I see Bon Jovi again. Kiel is sold out. Gonna be a blast.

Musings
I just thought that The Skyland is actually an excellent title for a website. You know, if I had some kind of song or movie or person related website, it would be difficult. Because I'm getting bored pretty quickly, and so I really had a problem with domain names after a while.
But The Skyland is unique, fits my former online name, fits my personality, for I love everything sky related (moon, stars, sun, northern lighs) and I can change the theme whenever I want to. It's always perfect.
Now, for instance, the subtitle (so to speak) is "only sixteen she feels a hundred years old", which is my very favourite line from my very favourite song "Someday I'll Be Saturday Night" by Bon Jovi. The Skyland can never be wrong. And it's easy to remember, not something like (just an example) crawling-underneath-my-skin.org or something like that *g*. I should get a flatrate and that domain sooooooon!!